Psalm 130:6 My soul waits for the Lord more than watchmen wait for the morning, more than watchmen wait for the morning.
About eighteen years ago, in our Sunday service, a song based on this verse was being sung. The words of the song were describing a passionate longing for the Lord that I didn’t have. In the distress of this realization, I went forward in the midst of it being sung and spoke to our rector who was leading worship. I told him, “I can’t sing this song because it doesn’t describe me.” When the song ended, I was so blessed by his words of wisdom. He commented, “When we sing songs that don’t describe us, let the song be a prayer that you are asking to become true of you.”
God used this experience to create within me the desire to become passionate for Him – with a passion that was palpable. I began searching for verses in the Psalms that communicated passion to me – and I found many of them. Another verse that particularly struck me was Psalm 42:1, “As the deer pants for streams of water, so my soul pants for you, O God.” I wanted to have my soul pant for the Lord. These verses then became the focus of my “Lord make this me” prayers.
My passion-meter or “passiometer” as I have referred to it, was not budging at all when this began. No passion was being reflected within me as I read and prayed the passion verses that I wanted to become true of me. Week after week; month after month; year after year, I prayed these verses throughout the Psalms.
As time went by, I was thrilled by the realization that the Lord was doing it. He caused passion to grow within me so that I could honestly say that these verses were now describing me. I hadn’t “arrived” but my “passiometer” was now registering passion within me as a Geiger counter recognizes radiation.
God in His goodness allowed me to see that I was missing such an important attribute that He wants growing in me. He desires me to become more and more passionate for Him. He gave me a plan and the determination to pursue it so He could bless me by answering it. He will do the same for you.
This hit right on the mark! It definitely has been something I have grown in and the Lord has shown me how to as well birthed His spirit bolder and deeper in me!