Psalm 20:4 May He give you the desire of your heart and make all your plans succeed.
I remember reading this verse and not having a clue what the desire of my heart was. On top of that, I didn’t know what my specific plans were either. A close friend asked me if I could do anything I wanted, what would it be? I couldn’t answer him either – other than saying to be prosperous or successful.
This began a search for me. I just hadn’t thought that much about what my desires were. It seemed there were things I could say that sounded good, but they really didn’t reflect a deep-seated desire. It was a given that I wanted to provide for my family and do well at my job, but it seemed that this verse was talking about something deeper than that.
This search became a part of my relationship with God. I was seeking to become more passionate in my love for Him. I wanted my life to better demonstrate my love for Him by doing the things His word says to do and to refrain from doing those things it says to avoid. It became clear that in order to love God more, my life had to become more conformed to His word. The more it did, the more I loved Him and pleased Him.
Through this search it became delightfully clear to me, that the Lord was giving me understanding about what He wanted our primary desires to be – that He in turn would grant. More than anything else, He wants us to love Him and please Him in everything.
He also opened my eyes to see that loving my wife, Donna, was inextricably interwoven with loving Him. Loving Him more, meant loving her more. (Think of 1 John 4:20b For anyone who does not love his brother, whom he has seen, cannot love God, whom he has not seen.) Having warm, wonderful emotional feelings for your spouse and for God is great, but loving someone is so much more than that. We must recognize the reality that our feelings can be communicating one thing, but our attitudes and actions can be sending a very different message.
The reality of life has a way of revealing where we are weak and in need of change. Who better for the Lord to use than those closest to us to reveal such things? If we could neither speak nor write – our love must be evident by the life we live. The desire of our heart must be such a life.